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Post by Admin on Sept 7, 2021 16:49:45 GMT
Seems when you get a new phone number, all your doing is inheriting all the 'wrong call callers' that plagued that number before you got.
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Post by Admin on Sept 7, 2021 16:51:42 GMT
Also, now that I'm 50 +, it's weird for me to see in the headlines where celebrities, other people or prominence, dying younger than myself.
Like some famous person just died at the age of 42, a male, and I'm seeing more and more of this, so if a male and do reach 50, even today that's a milestone.
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Post by Admin on Sept 7, 2021 18:10:51 GMT
Do 2nd Amendment types in U.S. secretly envy the Taliban?
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Post by Admin on Oct 11, 2021 18:21:08 GMT
Feeling very flat today, mentally, spiritually and physically
Feeling very flat today, probably cause I drank to much the last two days, I may be 50 +, but I still sometimes drink as if I'm in college, when alone that is.
I may be 50 + but don't allow myself to look it, and while wearing mask, even got carded once.
I don't feel 50+, not sure if age is a feeling.
Some people just look old cause it's like they want to, maybe the have grandkids and all, and want to look old to show they've been around, not me, I never want to look old.
But today my mind feels old, wore out, as I struggle to find motivation.
I'm off today, tomorrow, and maybe Wed, yet not motivated to do anything, that's not good.
Got caught up in social media for a while there, but that's fading now...you get addicted to 'views' and all, it lures you in, but you accomplish nothing real world by it.
i really do need to get my act together.
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Post by Admin on Nov 1, 2021 4:18:35 GMT
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Post by Admin on Nov 8, 2021 21:29:29 GMT
After watching this video, I became a fan of Johnny Depp
I suddenly now like the guy, he comes off so differently in real life than he does in the movies.
I always saw him as plastic until I saw these David Letterman segments.
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Post by Admin on Nov 24, 2021 22:24:05 GMT
Thanksgiving Eve
It's Thanksgiving eve, so what.
I spend my Holidays alone, and now prefer it that way.
All the good situations of the past are long gone and faded, and being around some distant family member trying to pretend the good ole days are still here, well, that would make it worse for me emotionally.
Instead would rather spend the day getting small stuff done, writing, blogging, podcasting, trying to sell online merchandize, ect.
I'd rather do that than just spend all day chatting about nothing, this is just how single solitary people think.
Or strategize to make things fiscally better, but to just eat and talk, nah, especially if haven't done so in a very long time.
I've been alone for so long that I just don't need one day of 'cheer', then go back to how things normally are, again, that just makes it worse for me emotionally.
Sure for those with families and friends year round, cool, that way T day isn't just a one day vacuum.
Just not in fate for me to have any of that anymore, and I'll be 'dry' this Thanksgiving, meaning no beer, no liquor, just cold hard reality starring me in the face.
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Post by Admin on Nov 28, 2021 21:09:13 GMT
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Post by Admin on Dec 4, 2021 2:27:52 GMT
I was finally able to buy a actual arysol can of Lysol spray for the first time in over a year, finally the run on Lysol spray is over, at least for now.  |
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Post by Admin on Dec 4, 2021 2:29:10 GMT
I was finally able to buy a actual arysol can of Lysol spray for the first time in over a year, finally the run on Lysol spray is over, at least for now. |
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Post by Admin on Dec 5, 2021 17:53:17 GMT
Actually wrote old fashion snail mail letter for the first time to another in about a decade or so  It's probably been over a decade since last wrote and actually sent out in a envelope, a letter, a personal letter, to anyone, but today did it, again, after a decade or more of not. Wow, wow, considering I use to be the King of letter writing, handwritten or typed on a typewriter, until the ease of email popped up, texting, ect. But still, nothing touches a person like a personal letter, at least some, maybe not the younger types who need all communications sent electronically, but I think those over 35 still appreciate a hand written letter every now and then, maybe those over 40.
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Post by Admin on Dec 14, 2021 16:25:41 GMT
The way I write you'd still think I were a teenager. I think in our own minds we always are, I mean we rush to grow up, but after the age of, say 35, we wish to be old again. And when you think about it age 35 is actually middle age for most In that few make it to 70, so once most cross the age of 35, the downhill ride towards mortality begins. How long we live after age 35 is up to the odd makers I guess. Well I'm still here so I beat a few odds, I guess, but not 70 yet, but heck if struggling trying to find meaning to my life now, can't imagine how worthless my existence will be when reach age 70, with no working skills, nothing, what a scary thought. Only if a millionaire would I want to live that long, and have medical care, but if poor, what a hellish existence that must be, I mean like poor with no family or friends to take care of you. And if body aches now, how will it feel in 20 or so years?, don't even want to imagine. Maybe I should find religion again to give me something more to hope for other than old age and death. www.spreaker.com/episode/45776667 |
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Post by Admin on Dec 20, 2021 22:46:48 GMT
Slept through most of the day, and now the sunlight part of day all but gone.
When I drink, I drink like I'm 19, even though way back then I actually did not drink ironically enough, now it's like trying to make up time over the last 15 years or so.
Well I have the evening in front of me, what shall I do to entertain self in my place tonight?
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Post by Admin on Dec 20, 2021 22:49:39 GMT
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Post by Admin on Dec 21, 2021 6:16:47 GMT
Sid the clown look alike  Saw this man in a news story and Sid, from Zombies 'The Devils Rejects', instantly jumped out to me so had to create this gif.
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