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Feel sluggish today, felt sluggish yesterday



Felt sluggish yesterday and now feel sluggish today, even though just worked out.
I hate feeling sluggish when I'm off work, I value off time, but if feeling sluggish I don't get stuff done, thus may as well be at work getting paid to feel sluggish.

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This may sound stupid, but I think, at my age, I still 'play' to much, meaning I engage in things, tasks, 'to do list' stuff, that add nothing to my future prosperity.

I play to much, I waste far to much time playing around, rather than say writing a book, or learning about the stock market, or getting into Real Estate ect.

It's one thing to 'play' when already wealthy, but I'm not there yet.

But then again, the way I figure it, if not wealthy by now it's not going to happen, and if does happen when I'm older and sickly I won't even care., life will be so short by then nothing will probably matter to me.

So I guess I 'play' now while still young enough to enjoy play and side activities that don't add up to a pile of beans.

Boy did my mood take a drastic swing from time I started post till ended it.

Sometimes I think it's OK for me to take a break from my own creative journey and sit back and watch TV, and escape into other people's creativity.

Not all the time, but sometimes.

Sometimes I feel sorry for my body.

My body isn't good or bad, it's just biological, designed to live, and has no idea that one day it won't be alive.

Our bodies have one function and one function only, live and reproduce.

Our bodies don't care about our color or gender or political leaning, whether we're racist or kind, tall or short, believe in god or not, Asian or Kurdish, our bodies could care the less, the cells in our bodies only purpose is to live, to heal, and to reproduce.

That being said, I sometimes feel sorry for the body my soul or spirit resides in, I don't always feel I live up to my end of the bargain or partnership.

I hurt my body by drinking alcohol, or by eating foods I shouldn't.

Also, I hurt my bodies efforts by not succeeding more, cause success makes us happy, and happy makes the body function better, being loved by others makes the body function better.

I feel at times that I've really let my body down.

Even thinking depressing thoughts is kind of a betrayal to the body soul relationship.

Yet, in spite of all of that, our bodies continue to trudge on, continue to keep us alive and as healthy as we will allow it to.

Even those who are rotton, have rotten souls, do rotten things to others, their bodies still continue to function and keep them alive and as healthy as it can, no matter their actions.

Our bodies are basically inocent by standers to our chosen misdeeds.

I'm really beginning to lose my interest in social media, for some reason, maybe cause it all just seems to shallow and hallow and empty to me now, especially after today, being out there around a real person participating in a real activity, it's like night and day, the difference.

Two silly adults who think they're still young, went flying



I guess they say gotta live while alive.

Part 2, the Landing



Gotta live while alive, this video is a continuation of the one above, but this is the landing sequence.

A pretty dull boring bland non eventful day, at least here, not so in Russia, of course.

I don't have much to say right now, day started off a bit rough when computer acted up, and from then it's never really gotten back on track.

Let's hope that Putin doesn't decide to shoot off nuclear weapon by morning, my gosh, who'd ever think we'd be going through the whole cold war nuclear scare thing again, wow.