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Post by Admin on Mar 23, 2024 3:24:02 GMT
My mood just took a sudden dive, an hour or so ago.I notice that food can really change your mood, at least mine, as of late. I was doing fine, before that. I went out to the store, no beer, I'm trying to stop drinking, again, at least for a while...I was content driving back, felt fine. But did eat some Mexican tortia chips and a Dr Pepper on the way back...I've never had those chips before...was that what altered my mood a bit?  Are these what altered my mood, that and Dr Pepper? I don't know, moods are weird to figure out, even at my age. Or is it that my body secretly craves beer or drinks right now? I don't know, like I said, I felt fine earlier, mood wise. Oh well, it's late Friday night, I've been out of work for about 3 weeks now and could really care the less cause waiting on something else to happen...I just hope that something else really happens and doesn't fade away like most good things in my life seem to do.
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Post by Admin on Apr 7, 2024 2:27:17 GMT
______ people are a disgusting plague to me.
Can't wait to move away and from around them.
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Post by Admin on Apr 18, 2024 5:49:49 GMT
Sometimes I just don't think I know what I'm doing anymore or where I want to go, going forward.
I mean yes, if had a million dollars, could get 'THERE' instantly, but most of us don't have a million dollars, so then what?
We just linger around, that's what.
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Post by Admin on May 8, 2024 15:24:37 GMT
I don't make sense to myself anymore.
I mean sure, I'm here, but my life has no structure...I have no structure.
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Post by Admin on May 8, 2024 21:04:10 GMT
I'm still here, just vegging out though.
Need to create a 'to do list', if I hope to accomplish anything today.
I'm lazy, no wonder life has left me way behind.
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Post by Admin on May 21, 2024 10:06:47 GMT
Sometimes I don't even know why I'm still here.
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Post by Admin on Jun 14, 2024 12:40:48 GMT
Some times, some days, my life just feels like one big mistake to me.
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Post by Admin on Jul 8, 2024 16:28:42 GMT
I feel a bit lost and unmotivated and disheveled today...not sure why.
I haven't drank in a whole week, yet I don't feel as good as I should.
Sometimes food, the chemicals they put in food, can effect our moods.
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Also, where I live, there's really not any young vibrant, positive, attractive people...everyone is mainly old and look burnt out or unattractive to me.
Hell, I'm older now to, but when I go out I try to dress like a model, a in shape fit model with longer hair than I've ever had in my entire life.
And another thing, why couldn't I have grown my hair out this long 20 years ago? When horny and into chasing the opposite sex.
Now, having long hair and looking exotic to myself is about socially worthless...bummer.
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Anyways, here soon I have like a online zoom type of meeting with my screenplay 'mentor'...they're not my mentor, what a sham...but hey, I paid for it, so have no choice now but to play it out.
Either way, my life will probably such going forward.
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Post by Admin on Jul 10, 2024 12:31:44 GMT
Not sure what's going on with my mood as of late.
I mean if I can't be or feel happy now, in this moment, then when?
I think future worry is what robs me and most of just being happy in the moment.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 4:39:47 GMT
What I learned tonight is that gay people are just as cruel, judgemental, mean, as any others in general population.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 4:40:06 GMT
As such, if ever in control...no mercy.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 14:02:24 GMT
This is how others see me as
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Post by Admin on Aug 2, 2024 15:52:41 GMT
I did go workout, a bit.
1. Drove car to parking lot, tried to remove scratches = 20 minutes
2. Drove car to park, walked, short sprints, stretched = 20 minutes
3. Drove to grocery store, parked, walked inside, walked around store = 30 minutes
4. Drove home, put grocery up = 10 minutes.
Now back home, and mood hasn't changed much at all...darn.
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Post by Admin on Aug 12, 2024 23:06:31 GMT
I feel jollier today, at the moment, than probably I should.
I drank last night, had a few beers, and then some, so for first part of day didn't feel so jolly, but now I do, and that's a result of getting in better and better shape.
The better shape you're in, the quicker you recover from drinking, is what I'm seeing.
And to be honest, when I compare drunk mode to sober mode...I much more prefer being sober now, for real.
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Post by Admin on Sept 10, 2024 2:30:38 GMT
 My mood is weird, I should be more unhappier than I am with all the up coming uncertainty in my life, and changes I may have to make, again, in my living situation. |
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