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Post by Admin on Jan 29, 2024 15:52:55 GMT
I feel totally dead on the inside, this morning. I'm sure it has to do with drinking...and maybe just a few other things as well, like my immediate future, or lack of. Either way, I just feel dead, so far, today.
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Post by Admin on Jan 29, 2024 23:57:24 GMT
It's Monday It's Monday, and I feel, oh so, not so good, morally that is. I drank beer yesterday, to much, and wow, today, it just shifted my mood. Alcohols no good for me anymore. It's almost like I want to die or something, cause I know it's not good, yet I drink anyways as a alternative to not being able to hide from my current reality. Everything changes as you age, your body handles booze differently than when younger, I know mine does. I just need to stop. So many are dying now, who are younger than me, yet I drink, at times, yet still in decent health. I need to stop drinking for my own sake. Drinking is making me make irrational decisions when drunk, obligations I can't afford, and making me shirk other responsibilities. Oh well, at least I haven't drank anything today, that's a start.
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Post by Admin on Mar 26, 2024 2:23:32 GMT
Odd how when used to drinking, then stop, even for a while after, you still wake up feeling like you're drunk, or should be.
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Post by Admin on Apr 4, 2024 0:48:01 GMT
I've been laying around, slushing around, all day, but must blame it on booze/beer from yesterday. Wow, it really just messed me up, altered my mood, enthusiasm, outlook and more....just one bad drinking session can do that. As you age, you never quite know how booze will hit you/effect your mood and body the next day.
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Post by Admin on Apr 7, 2024 2:08:27 GMT
My stomach feels a bit bloated, even though, when stepped on the scale, I've lost weight since been cutting way back on drinking.
I have a meeting on Tuesday, and well, I don't want to show up with that bloated alcohol face, cause this guy could change my life be letting me in the door (even though it's not free)
But I realize now, in life, it's about who you know and who you meet, more so than raw gifts and talents. -----------------------
Also, I lost my wallet, and had bank account shut down, so I sit here alone agonizing over the lost, while not being able to spend a dime until Monday, when I'll have to get new cards issued, and a new drivers license, and I still want that car I planned on getting today.
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How do I feel about cursing 'god'?
I don't feel no way at all about it, not at my age and stage, I'm sure lots of people do the same, but is it really god we're cursing? We may think it's god we're cursing, but we're really just cursing the invented god of our own mind, who probably doesn't even exist.
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