Alcohol after the age of 50, the good, bad, ugly and truth

I feel like drinking right now, but don't want all the side effects



I feel like drinking right now, or being emotionally taken to the spot drinking takes me to, but without the lingering side effects that always follow.

Wish I could get that drunk utopic feeling, without actually flooding the body with booze, which is bad for you, of course.
I'm working hard to get into shape, and I'm my own worst enemy, in that regard, most of us are indeed our own worst enemies.

But now that sober, I have energy, and afternoons, evenings, just seem to drag when sober, and that's a good thing, cause time is precious. But what I'm saying is when it drags, it makes me want to drink to make the dragging time more fun to myself.

That's just how drinkers think, I suppose.
When going sober, you really have to totally re-arrange you're whole mindset.
Even as I type this I feel like drinking, just so can relax.

Sobriety can be one scary ride, if not used to it



Sobriety can be one scary ride, for sure, if not used to it, and you realize what a shaky foundation of supposed friends, even family, and or future you've created for yourself.

Once sober, you have to decide how to make things right again, one corrective decision at a time.

Right now I'm on the fence again...a dangerous place to be when trying to stop drinking.

I drank last night, just beer, but because I'm in better shape now, it doesn't sink me as long and hard as it did when not in as good of shape.

None the less, I can't afford to slip back into a drinking every other night type of routine...nope.

Alcohol is making me emotionally spin out of control, again.

Even though not really drinking as much as I used to, but when I do drink, wow.
Tolerance is like low again.

Why am I posting here on the alcohol section?

Because I'm getting or feeling a bit anxious right now about a lot of things coming to a head.
Rent renewal, a online service I'm working on, fees, this and that, basically a money squeeze.

And not hearing promptly from others about matters that effect my fiscal well being...and right now I don't need booze getting in the way of whatever it is I got to get done.

I paid a large fee to a company, haven't heard from them sense Friday.
I think my apt lease renewed automatically, afraid to look at it cause it's probably more than what I was paying and my options have pretty much ran out.

I wanted to move, but got to comfortable here so wasn't mentally prepared to do so.

And, regardless, I've got to start seeking employment again here soon, very soon, which could get in the way of my leisurly lifestyle I've come to enjoy as of late.

As well as my health. Work, yes work, the wrong type of job can be bad for your health.
The wrong job can leave you feeling tired and depressed when off, and when tired and depressed you tend not to keep fit, and or you tend to start drinking during your off time.

I'm more physically fit now, than when I had my last job over 8 months ago, simply because I'm happier and have more time to workout and keep fit.

Jobs wear you out, but they don't keep you fit.

Basically, I just feel like my world is imploding and there's nothing I can do about any of it...is how I feel.
Is it a feeling or is it a reality?
Time will tell.

I notice drinking beer weakens your immune system, everything.

When I start drinking more than 3 times a week, I just notice more body aches, soarness, gums get sore more easily, drinking just tends to weaken your immunes systems and stuff your body would normally fix, correct, without you know it, seems to flare up when your immune is comprimised.