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I suspect my female, second story neighbor, spies on me as I walk around the kitchen at night naked



I suspect my second floor neighbor has been spying on me as I walk around the kitchen naked at night.
Their blinds are always wide open, mine are always shut, and their building slightly higher than mine, so even though my blinds are shut, I suspect they can look down into my place.

I actually did see someone in there tonight looking right over at my place, but the lights were off so they couldn't see that I was filming.
It was an older chubby white woman wearing glasses...hmm

Going forward, if at all possible, I do want to keep my life simple, in as much as society will allow me.

What am I waiting for?

My life has changed drastically over the last few months, or month and a half, since quitting my day job (trucking)

I've been unemployed since then, but doing other things, which includes selling a home and splitting the money with a sibling.
So ye, I got a bit of money, but not a lot, since had to split the proceeds.

Since then, the main thing I've spent money on is buying my mother a decent used vehicle, which hopefully they'll be receiving today.

And I planned on getting myself one last Saturday, but things went wrong (lost my wallet)

All that aside, I'm seriously thinking about getting into movie production stuff, to facilitate my creative side, and to end my adult isolation, which I've experienced for so many years, decades.
I'm just tired of doing the same o same o, and expecting different results.

Again, what am I waiting for?
I'm only getting older, not younger, and what few opportunities still there, if I don't act soon, to those, will be gone, and then I'll just be left with regret.

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Film and cinema...hmm

It' a bold move, and the training is not free, but the connections I will make in the industry are invaluable, and will finally put me around people again when I show up to work, to produce, to write, instead of the usual 'hop into the cab of a truck and work all day alone' BS.

If I were a family man, than fine, but I'm not, I'm still single at my age, and will never ever meet anyone until I immerse myself into a whole completely different career field and social path.

I'm just hoping life can still be fun for me going forward, whatever years I have left.
Things are changing fast, the younger generation, not sure if they're as trustworthy the carry the mantel as previous generations were.
crime, soft on crime crap, has made life hell for many older people.

Oh well, my days about to begin. It's Monday, I have a loaded schedule, bank, DMV, maybe a newer car, then a meeting with movie dude.

To be continued.

To be honest, at my age, I just don't expect to many more good things to happen to me.
If it does, cool, if not, I was here then left quietly..

This was posted 4 years ago...think about that, 4 years is the time we spend in high school, but when grown and an adult, look how fast time seems to pass.

That aside, the Twilight Zone still soothes me to this day, like no other show or series.

My mood is just now getting better, and it's after 9 pm.
I was in a post drinking slump, that pretty much lasted all day.
I need to stop drinking, period, especially at my age.
I lost a lot of time today doing nothing other than slumping around, in and out of bed or air mattress...there's so much I could have gotten done.
And tomorrow, gotta go to this guys studio for some 'hands own'...but we don't really like each other, and that's OK...I'm used to people not liking me...but this involves training and stuff.

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Anyways, will type out a few more lines of screen play story, then shave, and do a few other things to try to salvage what I can of this night.

Lately, I've just been neglecting everything in my life...bills, this that...I just don't care right now, plus been per-occupied with other stuff, or another thing.

But this period in my life, will to, pass one day.