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Post by Admin on Aug 27, 2023 13:43:33 GMT
I don't measure up, not in the least bit, to what others have done in this world and while alive.
That's not something one usually admits about self, but I'm forced to, after seeing a picture of a Chinese sub in the news.
Not so much the sub, but the enormity of the size, and the complex nature of it.
Yes, I know, U.S. has subs to, but it was the pic of that Chinese sub that blew my mind away and made me feel really small.
The things that stress me out, little things, well, if other great men and women of this world were as frail as I am, the world wouldn't be much.
Although, having support, financing, ect, does matter....I mean it's hard to be great and to make a difference while living in a social vacuum.
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Post by Admin on Sept 3, 2023 23:40:55 GMT
When I'm off from work, I never like feeling rushed, or that there's anything on a schedule, the following day, that I have to do....I hate that feeling.
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 20:26:25 GMT
I feel like hell is coming for us all, no matter how much we prepare for it not to happen
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Post by Admin on Sept 29, 2023 15:07:00 GMT
I hate when people come on here and post anonoumous BS, buy this, buy that, rather than at least joining in a conversation.
I mean is the internet getting so crowded that some have to come here now, to this quite peaceful place?
Leave all that fast moving, commercialized, profit driven worldly stuff out of this place, it's not needed or wanted here.
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Post by Admin on Oct 1, 2023 5:01:42 GMT
October will soon be upon us Yes, I know it's not quite October yet, it's a few days away, but still, October, traditionally, has been my favorite month, the coziness of it. Sad though, that so many American traditions, or even my own traditions, are fading. And no telling what kind of 3rd world, criminal, underworld traditions so many lying immigrants are bringing to the U.S. Liberals are stupid as heck to believe all these military aged men from south of the boarder and around the world are fleeing persecution...they're lying!!...OK...any street person knows that. It's more dangerous in America, more crime here, than the countries they're fleeing from.But this Biden admin wants to destabilize the U.S. by flooding it with strangers. It's all apart of some master global plan, trust me on that. --------------------------- Anyways, didn't mean to get all political, but just saying, each year it's like harder and harder for me to enjoy just being an American with how society just keeps changing for the worst, and those changes are accelerated by the Biden demonic administration. I guess they're the real goblins of Halloween now..
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Post by Admin on Oct 5, 2023 15:01:52 GMT
Today, I will be dropping a stamped envelope in the mail, addressed to my Mother, something I haven't done in a while, writing that is, snail mail, that is.
I used to be the king of writing letters, and stamping envelopes, but those days are long gone, email and texting all but destroyed that practice.
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Post by Admin on Oct 7, 2023 5:21:08 GMT
Bending Reality Bending Reality? But isn't that what art is about? How come those around you can appreciate other peoples art, yet same types incapable of seeing your own artistic expanse? The greatest canvass in the world, is yourself.(That line will be stolen from me and used by others for centuries to come, assuming the human race is still even on earth then)
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Post by Admin on Oct 13, 2023 5:52:50 GMT
Did the Twilight Zone TV show utilize crossdressing males to play women?This is going to sound strange, but I'm watching a episode of the TZ titled 'In his image', and I could swear up and down, the lady playing this one characters fiancé is or was a man. And to me, the dead giveaway is the CHIN.  I mean look at the chin, and also look how they're sitting in the car, women don't sit that way, that's how men sit and lay back against seats. And this is not the first episode where I've suspected men playing the roles of women. Am I on to something here that no one else has ever noticed before? Feel free to copy and share the image and study it for yourself.
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Post by Admin on Oct 18, 2023 1:24:01 GMT
October is upon us, already half way gone, wow!  Art, self-portraits, have always allowed me to escape and relax whatever my current reality happens to be. Some people have very good current realities that they love, but others, as myself, aren't always comfortable with the current reality of my life. Most of the good and bad takes place within our own minds. That being said, that's a 'me' portrait from a few years ago, but I changed some things. You won't find such a person in real life (Accept maybe in the Lord of the Rings as some larger hobbit or something), in that I enlarged the head area and the feet. I've always used my own body as a canvass, to stretch and explore my physical range.Sad thing is, is that in real life, most people would never imagine I have such artistic range, cause when I go to work, I just look like any other average blue collar tweeb. ---------------------- I'm older now, but glad, for a few years, I really explored portrait art, when still young enough to make it fun to self to do so, and the fun thing about digital art, or help, is that now you can stretch your youthful glow even further than if just had to rely on film development like years ago. Remember the days of taking all your private photos to the drug store and allowing a stranger to develop your pictures? Anyways, you gotta keep having fun in life or you'll become old and cranky Happy October and soon, Happy Halloween!
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Post by Admin on Oct 18, 2023 3:17:06 GMT
Wish I could win the lottery, drop everything, and then just vanish.
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Post by Admin on Oct 22, 2023 4:11:53 GMT
If my Mother wasn't still around, I wouldn't care about a dm soul alive, who didn't care about me.
My mother being alive still, is probably the only reason why even still pretend to give a dern about anything or anyone....for the most part.
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Post by Admin on Oct 24, 2023 14:56:50 GMT
Grace under fire, could only be made in the good ole U.S.A. People should never take their freedoms for granted in the good ole U.S.A. But sadly many do. The freedom of expression should never be suppressed by anyone, particularly foreigners who tend to come from very intolerant societies. Well please don't bring that intolerance here to the states, thanks.
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Post by Admin on Oct 29, 2023 15:08:34 GMT
About to travel soon, and have never felt more insecure about doing so in many years About to travel soon, and wow, it's not something I want to do at all. I booked flight while drunk or drinking, so of course then I was gutsy, but now, heck now. Traveling scares the hell out of me now days.I used to love flying, traveling, but that was years ago when society was way more sane. Now, everyone's gone looney. Fights break out, the mentally ill hide their illness until aboard airplane in mid-flight.
I'm safe, have been safe, cause for the last decade I stick to my small little world or predictability, work, home, work, home, grocery store, work, home..ect. Now though, will be veering 1000's of miles outside of my safe comfort zone, and ye, I'm nervous about it, especially every time I read the headlines of all the crazy stuff going on now days, in public spaces. Not to mention a mentally ill pilot tried turning off airplane engines, in mid-flight, a few weeks ago.. abcnews.go.com/US/details-emerge-after-off-duty-pilot-allegedly-shut/story?id=104247388And then being a person of color makes it even worse for me, in that going to a majority 'W' area, which is fine, I'm fine with all white communities, I feel safer there, but, but, do to all the negative headline news, my nightmare is for them to associate me with all the crap they see on social media. When people fear you, they become hostile, and when hostile, they behave in ways that are dangerous to you. I'm totally for law and order (even voted for Trump, twice), but when 'B' or person of color, no matter how you voted, you instantly get lumped in with being a drug user or a thug or just a danger to whatever community you're in....and that's just the fact jack. And to be honest with you, I can't blame them, or anyone, who makes that association. Everyone is fleeing Democrat states and cities and headed to small rural towns (where I'm from actually). But when I return, they'll think I'm the new one, and not realize, no, I was there first, it's you all 'Johny come lately' types, that are the intruders into the heartland. Yep, now you have all these snotty nosed suburban uppity types fleeing to the very small towns they used to laugh about, and then once there, they think they own the place or places. Oh well, society is changing, always does, and the older you get the scarier change becomes. --------------------------- In a week or so, I'll be in for the adventure, not of my life, but of my older adult years life. (When younger, such a trip would of been nothing to me) But society is not what it was when I was younger, when criminals go locked up and stayed in jail/prison, and where our boarder was controlled, and where small towns were still cheap affordable places to live...now you go to small towns and some have been completely taking over by migrants from Somalia or ect. Everything is changing, and not sure if I'm equipped to deal with these changes, but you know what, the world stands still for no one, not even me.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2023 18:25:43 GMT
Happy Halloween!  Happy Halloween! Even though I'm not really feeling it this year, to many real life worries have bogged down my mind...that's my own fault, I suppose. That aside, it is Halloween eve, for those lucky enough to be able to get into the spirit of the season, and who are lucky enough to have fun people around you who are receptive to it all. At this moment in time, as in right now, I feel Halloween, ghouls and goblins can only be an improvement for the way my life has been going lately.👻🎃 I'm tired, and just wish things, life, society, could be the way I remember it when younger, people are so mean now, social media has just brought out the worst in humanity. Happy Halloween for those of you able to enjoy it...
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2023 22:47:50 GMT
Sometimes I feel so tired, and then realize still have so far to go  I'm tired, tired of losing, tired of making the wrong decisions in life, tired of being alienated from caring people, and instead cursed to have uncaring people in my life circle. I'm tired of drinking, and the after effects of, I'm tired of not being able to focus on stuff long enough to accomplish anything meaningful. I'm tired of always picking up after myself, I'm tired of my job, I'm tired of not being loved. I'm tired of a lot of things, tired of being poor, tired of not being able to help those few I still do care about. Tired of social medias bias, tired of political corruption, tired of cars, traffic, industrial noise. I'm just tired, yet still have a ways to go, whatever am I going to do??
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