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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2022 13:26:39 GMT
Monday is here  And just like that it's Monday again, wow, time really does fly, especially when you record it. I haven't anything planned for the day. Woke up with a bunch of honeybees on my patio, will probably be the most signifcant thing that occurs all day, but at least it'll serve as a memory marker. I mean if don't mark each and every day with some kind of a memorable event, in the future you'll forget you ever lived at all. If you don't make an effort to remember and mark your own life experiences, no one else will, that's for sure, unless a bad person caught up in the law. But if a good person, and you live a normal quiet law abiding life, there'll really be no record of what you did. Even most jobs, once gone, you're instantly forgotton. There is no hall of fame for average workers, you leave, retire, get fired, and that's it, all your years of work instantly forgotten. Anyways, it's Monday, I'm off, oh what shall I do? Probably nothing, as usual, absolutely nothing.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2022 14:26:18 GMT
I also notice if I don't get up and dressed first thing, than I get lazy.
I need to get dressed, then maybe I'll be inspired to actually get up and out of here today, if not just to the park or waterfront.
I do have a 25 dollar scratch off ticket to cash in, I paid 5 for it, so gained 20....so what, in the over all scheme of things, winning 20 bucks is nothing.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2022 17:21:47 GMT
Bored out of my mind, I haven't been this bored while off, in months, what's going on with me?
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Post by Admin on Jun 27, 2022 13:21:29 GMT
Monday is here  Yep, it's Monday, what does that mean for me? It means like every other day I'll be sidelined in the game of life. I'll be had, but won't had anyone. I'll be starred at and looked at, and accused of being this or that, just for being alive and doing none of 'this or that'. I'll be 100 different things to 100 different people today who see me, assuming I go out. I'll pay some bills, and be a little bit more broke. I'll be made to feel bad, for wanting what everyone else has, which is love and affection. All that aside though, I'll get up and still try to convince myself that things are OK, and that yet still one day, I just may find my way. It's Monday again, it's here and so am I.
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Post by Admin on Jun 27, 2022 18:22:47 GMT
Do you ever just feel like there's some great or grand behind the scenes force that hired simply to keep you down?
Like their only purpose is to snuff out any and whatever opportunity you have to succeed and shine?
Be it one person with influence or some shady organization that's bent on your personal demise?
It's one of those things that you can never prove, but just kind of sense.
Your worse enemy is always the one you can't see.
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Post by Admin on Jul 4, 2022 12:50:04 GMT
4th of July Monday 4th of July Monday...great, wonderful, I'm off, but pretty much just another day for me, no plans or anything.  No hot dogs, no cook out, no nothing. I don't even know if I have the mental energy to go to the store today. Where I stay, the grocery store is always packed, no matter the day, makes you wonder if any one works if always shopping for food all the time. Grocery shopping is expensive now, hard to leave out of store, even when buying the minimum, without being charged $50 bucks or so. I'm talking some fruit, maybe one slice of lamb meat, I mean basic stuff, and the grocery bill just climbs quickly. I drank yesterday, like a dummy, so moral not the best right now, you know how that goes, you feel great while drinking, then the next morning want to hide under a rock.
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Post by Admin on Jul 4, 2022 21:06:42 GMT
Its still Monday  It's still Monday, dread this evening and night, I dread the 4th of July, or the antics that surround it, the fireworks, the noise, the public intoxication, I dread it all, and have no use for any of it. The not knowing if fireworks going to hit your car, or something going to fly through your window, what madness, and irresponsible people shooting guns in the air. I've come to almost hate the 4th of July holiday, and most of those celebrating it where I stay don't even know why, they just like the noise and chaos, which reflects their normal day to day lives, I guess. So, if I'm going to go out to store, better do it soon before sun starts setting. Don't really need much, I don't each much, nothing to celebrate when alone. Maybe I'll have a beer or two though. And about finished with my new radio show which if all works out, I'll begin sharing it here, but show will only air once a week, and even then only for 27 minutes, and I have to pay for that time, and it's not cheap, but I'm gambling that the exposure I get from being on am radio, celestial radio, will allow me to promote stuff like my books, my podcast and more, cause I tell you what, social media is about dead as hell now, unless already a celebrity. With radio, when people hear you on the radio, you kind of become a instant celebrity by default, thus people listen to you more and are more likely to buy stuff from you. Anyways, if I'm going to the store I'd better do it soon. It's still Monday and still the 4th of July.
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Post by Admin on Jul 4, 2022 22:42:07 GMT
I'm trying to wrap up a radio show, and this small minded whatever want to light fireworks outside and mess up my recording, the disquest I feel towards them right now is large.
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Post by Admin on Jul 11, 2022 12:51:33 GMT
Monday is here  I had plans today, but then stupid me, just had to drink yesterday evening, and now, of course, I don't feel like doing a thing. Alcohol is selfish, it doesn't just want you while you're drinking, it wants, claims you for hours, even a whole day sometimes, after you've stopped. Stupid stupid me. But that's what happens when you get lonely and have no one to turn to, you turn to alcohol. I only drink when I'm alone, but to be fair to myself, there are plenty of people who aren't alone, who do have love in thier life, friends, family, and they still chose to drink. Anyways, it's Monday, at least I don't have to work and have all day to sort out my feelings and eat when I want.
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Post by Admin on Aug 8, 2022 16:24:05 GMT
I wonder how come now suddenly Vaseline is suddenly in short supply, at least where I stay in the SE.  |
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Post by Admin on Nov 7, 2022 16:19:06 GMT
A bit of a laugh
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Post by Admin on Dec 12, 2022 19:04:56 GMT
Yuk, I need to get dressed and go to the store, I hate shopping anymore, there's nothing fun about it.
When younger and more 'H' word, going out to the store meant possibly meeting someone, impressing someone, but now, nah.
Social media makes staying home not so bad, cause can just stir up conversations online, which you really can't in public anymore.
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Post by Admin on Dec 26, 2022 17:08:38 GMT
About to turn on my cell phone, I really dread doing that, cause to me, when I do, it feels as if the flood gates of hell come pouring in.
All kinds of messages and stuff that I don't want to hear about, sent by those who could care the less about my soul.
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Post by Admin on Dec 26, 2022 17:14:25 GMT
I've got like 2 books on Amazon, and frozen out of accounts do to technical era which means I have to call their 'help line', which is hell to me.
But curious to see if books made any sales, and or I have another one i want to upload to Amazon here soon.
I just don't feel like being placed on hold while listening to mind numbing elevator music.
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Post by Admin on Dec 26, 2022 17:15:43 GMT
I don't want no one in my life anymore who isn't interested in helping to build me up.
When younger, all I tried to do was build up others, but no one ever invested any time or energy in me.
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