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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2022 17:38:44 GMT
Last day of 2022.
I won't be doing anything special tonight other than bunkering down and hiding away from those who'll be lighting off fireworks who have no idea what America is about, they'll just be lighting off fireworks to be wild.
Loud noises cater to beastly type of people who love violence.
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2022 17:40:22 GMT
I'm alive, awake and here.
In order to get anything done today, I must create a 'to do list', or my mind will just aimless drift, and or I'll waste all day typing away on social media, which is a totally worthless exercise
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2022 17:49:42 GMT
But if going to go to the store, I need to do it asap, not saying I'll even be awake come midnight, or feel like drinking, but if I do, I'd rather have the beer already here, than to go out later in the evening to retrieve it when crazy people and cops will both be out.
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2022 18:19:45 GMT
Anyways, about to get dressed, groomed, and venture out to the store, while still somewhat safe to do so.
But today, in our society, we literally have animals in human form, living among us, and they only pretend to be human, as long as you don't upset them.
So when you go out, you have to be very very careful not to offend these animals in human form....or things could get complicated.
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Post by Admin on Feb 12, 2023 5:44:38 GMT
It's Saturday  It's been a pretty non eventful day, energy level started off pretty good, but then I made the mistake of drinking 1 large can of beer, before tossing the other one into the waterway. After that I ate some roman noodles, after that I crashed for a while...and energy level and or enthusiasm hasn't been the same since. But I've only had that one beer since Tuesday cause I worked Wed, Thurs, and Friday...so 1 beer in 4 days. I'm trying to stop drinking, again, cause I just feel better when I do, and I lose weight, and I look better, and am more productive with my time. I did manage to get in a late night workout, did about 2 laps on the treadmill, just fast walking. I'm so glad I got that treadmill years ago, even though it's boring as all heck to use. But still, it comes in handy when the weather is bad out. Anyways, not much else going on, the day's pretty much gone, hopefully I'll be more productive tomorrow. Oh, and I did have a pilot friend of mine call, and believe it or not, he will be one of the pilots flying the Eagles team back to Philly after their big game tomorrow. I even have a interview with him I'll upload some day.
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Post by Admin on Jun 11, 2023 12:03:22 GMT
When you lose, acknowledge it and try to move on  In life, obviously, we lose, some of us more than others. Some of us lose mentally, spiritually, and others lose physically. Some can be physically afflicted, yet have lots of love in their life to better help them cope. Others, may not have any physical affliction, yet can be tormented in other ways, mental ways, their environment can literally be driving them insane, and add to that a lack of any love, and well, who has it worse? Torment can't always be measured the same way with different people or even animals. I think people snap when they want whatever they think is tormenting them, to stop. When people snap, they're not thinking about the consequences of their actions, all they're thinking about is 'I want this torment to end'. Be it another person who annoys them, or insect infestation, or loud noise, whatever. All I can say is guard your mind or 'guard the mind', for evil loves to torment people and create miniature hells, that exist inside of everyone's own mind.
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Post by Admin on Jul 1, 2023 14:33:56 GMT
I don't always agree that men are always born bigger and stronger than women are.  I mean do these two male models look like football players?? I think it depends on genetics. I mean, where I'm at now, I see some B women that are built like football linemen, and although may be biological female, they totally act like men, walk like men, talk like men, think like men, nothing fem about them at all. I think being fem or soft, is something you have to want to develop within yourself....but nature alone doesn't necessarily decide how fem one is. |
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Post by Admin on Jul 9, 2023 13:29:48 GMT
This southern heat can really drain you of your motivation to go outside.
When it's humid and hot, it ust messes with your looks.
And if a female, don't even bother wearing lots of make up in this southern heat, cause it'll just melt off your face.
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Post by Admin on Jul 16, 2023 2:41:45 GMT
Saturday night Hard to believe, like 5+ years ago, or so, on a Saturday night, I'd might consider going out to this one 4 plex club, and just having fun. Said place has since closed down, seems a lot of places shut down during covid, and never re-opened. But if it were open, just not in the spirit to go out anymore. It was like a mix orientation type of club, and fun as hell to go to, to talk with people, to mingle, and that's as far as it went, but they'd like have different shows going on.. And believe it or not, even though designated a LGBTQ type of club, everyone went there, cause it was generally safer than say a straight club, where all men want to do is fight, and all the women who show up are skanks. At the LGBTQ place or 'the metro', had a variety of personalities, classes of people, styles, venues, it was just a fun place to just hang out, whether gay or straight or lesbian or this or that. Many straight house wives or women, also went there, a place where they could relax without having men drool over them. Oh, those were the days. I haven't been out like that since....I just don't have anything to celebrate anymore.
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Post by Admin on Jul 29, 2023 14:18:59 GMT
Moods are weird
You can come home from work and feel good, when should feel bad, then sleep all night, wake up feeling OK, then the momentum of feeling good begins to fade do to other factors, maybe your health, your mental state, ect.
Right now my mood is on a downward trajectory, where as last night it was on a upward trajectory.
Again, moods are just odd, and even annoying at times.
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Post by Admin on Sept 3, 2023 3:25:33 GMT
I think I've just had my first glass or cup of ice water in years, maybe 2-5 years, if not longer.
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Post by Admin on Nov 4, 2023 18:44:08 GMT
Bought a flip phone, finally  Finally purchased a flip phone in this day and age of lies and spies. I don't need no Iphone crap anymore (although still do have Iphone) But like when traveling or whatever, I don't need no brain numbing, mood altering 5g crap.
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Post by Admin on Jan 28, 2024 4:18:51 GMT
It's Saturday night It's Saturday night, I worked today, been off, home, for about an hour or so. I haven't gone out on a Saturday night in years, those days feel so behind me, but they don't have to be. All the places I used to go to have since closed down, and I just haven't been in the spirit to go out lately. It's only fun going out when you have lots of cash, and a decent car. No fun going out when you feel like you're near broke, or going broke in slow motion. ----------------------------- Yep, it's Saturday night, about to lay back and watch a few movies; although I never watch whole movies from beginning to end hardly anymore. I usually watch 10 minutes here, 15 minutes there, of another movie, and so forth. A movie really has to be good for me to watch all the way through. And most movies I watch now, I've seen before, cause it's so hard to find new ones worth my time. Anyways, time to lay back and give the brain a rest. It's Saturday night in January, I think.
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Post by Admin on Apr 7, 2024 2:02:14 GMT
Terrible day...lost wallet, but feels more like it was stolen from vehicle by two hooligans...
With everyone high or chasing a high, on the streets these days, nothings secure out there.
Thug hooligans everywhere, of all colors and stripes.
Sidewalk dwellers and walkers.
I was just about to buy a nice Dodge Challenger when discovered wallet was gone.
Only stopped at gas station before that, that's the last time I remember seeing it.
But then stopped at another place, and do remember a white and black hooligan couple, walking on the sidewalk past where I parked my vehicle.
Hooligans are slick, and all they need is one quick moment where you're not watching vehicle, and they'll open door and take whatever they can grab.
Can I prove they took it, no...but just saying.
Unless I left it on roof of vehicle after fueling.
I went back there, but that place was in the hood, and ain't no hood black person, sidewalk dweller, down on their luck type gonna return no wallet.
But I've since frozen my account, so I'm without funds until Monday morning.
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What should of been the best day of my life in many decades, was fcked up...and I cursed 'god' for it.
I have nothing, no family, no offspring, no love in my life, nothing, and the demon around me can't even let me have 1 day where everything goes right.
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Oh well, it's done, I've been damaged for sure, and can never get today back, ever, nor am I guaranteed tomorrow or next week, especially at my age.
It's like the greedy, jealous demon or god around me is so cruel, and just wants me to remain so below average in everything, even though I've got talent.
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Post by Admin on Jun 22, 2024 21:39:40 GMT
Today I feel like my brain is gone.
I've made so many minor mistakes today, but those mistakes add up...terrible.
Mistakes cost you time.
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