Friday night, when over 50

Update on above post.

Actually I no longer have Netflix, I tried signing in a earlier in the week and couldn't, but yet know I paid, so I just changed my debit card, and said 'screw them'.

Then found out later that their stock is dropping and so are custimers do to their 'woke' movie culture.

Here's the deal, without the original cool movies they use to have the rights to, like all the Marvel comics, Star Wars and the rest, than there's really nothing special about Netflix anymore.

They don't even have 'Z nation' on anymore...are you kidding me?



Z nation was like my favorite Zombie series, which I preferred over 'The walking dead' series.

So basically all the cool movies from 4-5 years ago on Netflix have been yanked, as other streaming companies have taken them.

To many streaming channels now, all the good movies are stretched out to thin, so have to like subscribe to 4 or 5 companies to get all that you want.

Screw that.

It's one of those Friday nights, weekend off, that I actually do kind of wish i were on a date, with anyone I found attractive.

I haven't been on a date in years.

And dating sites, ect, what a waste of time to me, you spend more time going back and forth and being eliminated than actually having real life conversations.

Date lines allow for ugly women to judge you, when they themselves aren't really about much.

And people judge you so quickly over a few photos, not everyone is photogenic.

So, you have loser women seeking out men who look like Hollywood stars, how realistic is that?

I don't need some short, fat, wobbly woman being picky over me, and acting like they're all that when they're not.

Date lines just frustrate me, they use to be more legit, but have really devolved into trash cans, in my opinion.

And you have to keep paying and paying in order to probe deeper into whomever you think you're interested in, I just think it's demeaning, the whole process.

Then they boast of having millions of members around the world, well that sucks, cause I just need to meet one person locally, not someone from Spain or China or Japan, that I'll never be able to meet.

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All that aside, ye, tonite, I do feel a bit lonely, and kind of wish I had companionship, but then there's always the internet and 'fast times' type of sites,

Where you gaze and watch others do what you cannot.

I don't live that far from the beach, maybe a bit less than an hour, depending on traffic, time of day.
But 'the beach?', what would I do there, watch others?

Plus at the beach, parking is a nightmare, have to usually park blocks away from the beach, or pay in a meter, it's just all a hassle to me unless going there for a specific reason....to much clutter, to many people, to hot, and if not plan on actually getting in the water, what's the point?

What's the point of just seeing a few beautiful people you don't know and cannot date.

Maybe if had newer cooler car I'd cruise out that way, to show off or out, but with the older clunker I have, nah, what's the point.

I worked today, so it's just another dull Friday night for me.
I hate apartment life now, I really do.

Strange people who don't even live here always parking in your spot.

I just despise city dwellers, especially younger ones, not raised with parents who taught them manners.

It's Friday, I worked today, gotta work tomorrow, nothing to see here, nothing to celebrate.
I may sign into Disney + and watch me some 'Mandalorian, but if can't find PW, forget it.
I have HULU also, but haven't watched anything on it for months, am I wasting money?

As a content creator myself, I just don't have the time to always watch what other folks are creating and getting paid for.
All my content stuff is free, I just do it out of passion.

It's not Friday night yet, but it is Friday.
I've been laying around all day. The previous two days have can of worn me out, in that have been clearing out my old place, and loading stuff onto the pickup truck, and taking to storage and new place...constant motion, and it's been like 2.5 days of constant physical activity followed by drinking.

I lost my old place to an apartment fire, so no longer there, and have been dealing with the emotional turmoil of that as well. I have new place now, but of course it doesn't feel like home, nor do I ever really want it to.
Going forward, I don't ever want to feel at home anywhere, cause I see now that that's just one big emotional trap.
Nothing is guaranteed or certain in this world, and as soon as you forget that, you set yourself up for pain.

Anyways, so much still to do, haven't been on social media in weeks, all of my normal online routine disrupted by the fire.

Was able to go back and recover most of my passwords, so may slowly start logging into places again....even FB.
But for now, have to finish transferring my lease to new apartment....at least here rent is about 400 dollars cheaper per month...that part is cool.