The Dizzy Sissy

If I don't stick to the 'to do list', I won't get anything done, cause as of late, my brain has been very lazy.
I'll just sit and mentally drift unless have a list of things to do, and even lately that barely works.

That 'umph' in me, that forward driving juice I used to have, is just not there as of late, and sometimes I wonder if that 'umph', was really driven by booze over the years, rather than me actually being genuinely enthused about things.

When you stop drinking, you really do have to get to know yourself all over again.

I heard once, the year you start drinking is the year you stop maturing...so if I started drinking, say, 10 years ago, that means my maturity level stopped 10 years ago.

That could be good or bad, cause the older you get, maturity stops mattering after a while as you near the grave.
I mean it's not like maturity can defeat death....and who wants to be an old wooden no humor stiff type anyways?

I think, however, maturity does matter when a parent, and raising a family, but if alone, by yourself, not so much...what matters is to have fun, generate your own fun, because when alone, no one else will generate it for you.

Anyhow, wasting time on here when I need to finish up what I was doing on the 'to do list'.
Also, Halloween is nearing...cool.
October has always been my favorite month.
Not so much where I live now, cause in certain urban areas, or Southern areas, B folks to deadened on the inside to celebrate different holidays...the only holidays these B folks down here celebrate is rap music...24/7 rap music.

Dishonesty breeds contempt



www.podbean.com/ew/pb-vvg4u-172dae7

Kqueensland podcast...between black and white, gay and straight podcast.

This episode discusses how dishonesty with self, is what breeds hostility towards others.
Listen to the podcast and see if you agree or disagree.

Dishonesty breeds contempt



I think people are dishonest about their sexuality probably more than anything else in life.