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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 17:29:57 GMT
If above the age of 50, you shouldn't get on the phone, while drunk, and call non-emergency police lines, cause you'll end up making a fool out of yourself.
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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 18:54:40 GMT
when people don't call me, or don't call me back, you'd think I'd get the message they're no longer interested, have moved on ect...and I do, that is until I get drunk.
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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 18:56:25 GMT
Yesterday night was on of those really out of control drunk at home stints....even the cops came, cause they misinterprited something I said while on the phone.
I came to the door naked.
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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 18:57:24 GMT
Hopefully the next 3 days of work will mellow me out...starting tomorrow that is.
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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 18:59:10 GMT
If I had died yesterday, I don't even think I would of cared.
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Post by Admin on Aug 31, 2022 19:00:36 GMT
I mean what am I really doing anymore other than trying to find meaning in my waning years, somehow convincing stuff that 'things can still get better'...ye ok.
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Post by Admin on Oct 4, 2022 16:15:35 GMT
 I got really drunk yesterday, and made a fool out of myself, as usual. Nothing criminal, just more like silly college type of antics. The problem is is that even though I drink, or starting to again (won't to stop again also, we'll see), the thing is is that I'm in good shape. So, when I drink, I have energy. I mean even yesterday I was riding my mountain bike while drunk and drinking. I'm like the most in shape person who drinks, and so when I do drink, I feel like I'm college aged still, and it can suck if thoughts go south. But I drink out of loneliness, I guess...believe it or not it's when I'm around other people that I don't like to drink, cause if in anothers company, I'm no longer lonely so why would I drink? Where as others do the opposite, as in social drinkers. I wouldn't want to be around others if or when drunk, i wouldn't want anyone to see me drunk, not anyone i cared for anyways. Yesterday was embarrassing for me, mainly all the calls I made to like police non emergency lines, just to have someone to talk to. But I know i made a fool out of myself, well maybe not, I don't know. And then started acting out right here where I live to my neighbors, using mega horn and all, how embarrassing. So today I feel stupid, as I should...and still have more beer in place, but I work tomorrow so if do drink, have to temper it down since will have to get up early tomorrow for work. |
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Post by Admin on Aug 20, 2023 22:02:50 GMT
Well, I did drink yesterday when got home from work, and did get drunk, and it hit me in a terrible way today, and still recovering.
I wish I hadn't of drank, but I did, and I called people and made a nut out of myself as usual.
And I rented a car so that tomorrow I can go look at one of the properties left to me and another, and I made promises of this and that, all while drunk.
I wish I had never drank yesterday, been lying in bed all day watching older Twilight Zone episodes, when I should be getting ready for tomorrow.
Not sure why that beer hit me so hard, harder than usual.
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Post by Admin on Aug 20, 2023 22:04:03 GMT
I've had phone off all day, and feel dead to the world right now.
But I can't be in this state of physiological reality for to much longer.
But you only feel better when do, it's not something you can rush.
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Post by Admin on Jan 29, 2024 15:51:19 GMT
I think texting or talking on the phone, while drunk, can be the intellectual equivalent of driving while drunk...a accident is sure to happen.
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Post by Admin on Oct 9, 2024 18:05:12 GMT
You should just stay off the phone and internet.
I was drunk last night, and wow.
I asked my old company if I could possibly return to them...I'd of never done that when or if sober.
I was in a panic mode, and because I was drunk, my reasonable side wasn't there to stop me.
What a stupid thing to do...I mean asking for your old job back, possibly, may seem harmless, but to me it's humiliating.
It's as if some gremlin demon in me takes over when I'm drunk and has me doing things, typing things, expressing things, I'd never do when sober...then you just feel embarrassed, and again, they're harmless things, compared to actual bad things people do, but still, it can really alienate you.
Oh well, what can I do about it, yesterdays gone, but I'm still here.
Time to get up, dress, groom, and go take care of a chore or two.
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Post by Admin on Oct 9, 2024 18:06:45 GMT
I sometimes wish I could just erase myself, erase my useless identity, as if never here. My identity is worthless, to me, at this stage of my life.  |
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