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Today
Nov 4, 2024 14:42:44 GMT
Post by Admin on Nov 4, 2024 14:42:44 GMT
These last few days have been dreamlike for me, but in a quasae hellish type of a way. I need to snap myself out of this funk or slump...and drinking sure doesn't help.
Luckly I've kept self in relatively decent shape over the last few months, so snapping out of it will be easier than if was out of shape.
I just need to refocus, lay off the booze, and that's really it.
When my mind is sober, things don't seem so bad, but when in and out of drinking spells, things seem and feel horrific at times.
I think the first thing I'll do this morning is groom, get dressed, and go workout, to start the week, and after that, well, we'll see.
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Today
Nov 14, 2024 23:40:06 GMT
Post by Admin on Nov 14, 2024 23:40:06 GMT
Time to write up a current 'to do list' Time to write up a current and relevant 'to do list', or I'll waste the rest of the evening and night just spacing off, I'm good at spacing off...cause in reality I'm done with life, meaning I could just spend the rest of my days in seclusion, if only I were rich. I have no desire to be apart of greater society no more, but forced to do to income needs. When younger, always dreaming of just buying some spooky older house, large house, with like 3-4 stories, and lots of rooms to explore. Imaging being alone and night while stoned in such a place, oh the adventures. Why must I live in a state where weed is illegal (Florida)...not that that stops anyone from doing it...but I don't, cause if I ever get back into driving, they test you for that...but it's one reason why they can't find good drivers these days, cause many drivers want their weed, or TSB or whatever the residue is called that they sell in stores. Anyways, time to get busy on some tasks. I have plenty of energy, even though not feeling the best on the inside.
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Today
Nov 15, 2024 17:04:34 GMT
Post by Admin on Nov 15, 2024 17:04:34 GMT
Time to get up, as the world and other people, and the devil, and maybe even god are all waiting to smack me in the face and slowly destroy my dreams and ambitions. Time to get up and get beat up by life.
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