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Post by Admin on Mar 27, 2022 23:47:42 GMT
Cleaning over the age of 50  Cleaning over the age of 50.
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Post by Admin on Mar 27, 2022 23:55:44 GMT
About to purge some clothing in one of my closets  About to purge the clothing in one of my closets, that is get rid of, finally, clothing that's been hanging in there for years and years, but that I never wear. And we always tell ourselves, or project off into the future some date or occasion where such clothing will be worn by us, but that occassion and date never arrive, and so the clothing just hangs there for yet another year. Not this time, cause I'm in a purging mood, been cleaning and clearing whole place actually, and now finally in the mindset to purge all that I don't need or use. And actuall, oddly enough, saw this movie, with Will Ferro in it that kind of resembles what I'm going through. Only in my case there's no wife or woman involved, but rather I guess my wife or woman would symbolically be life, or my 'other side', or fill in the blank. But there was a scene in there where after getting kicked out his home, he finally just let it all go, and sold it all. That was a very symbolic moment of moving on, and that's what I'm trying to do, move on, before the past buries me.
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Post by Admin on May 5, 2022 20:12:02 GMT
Once again I'm cleaning, it's a never ending process, like a dog chasing their own tail.
And once again, cleaning just has the most exhausting effect on me, not sure why, must be phycological or something, cause when cleaning, afterwards I just feel emotionally and phyically floored.
Maybe it's the idea of expending energy that's getting you nowhere.
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Post by Admin on Apr 22, 2023 2:25:22 GMT
I get sick and tired of cleaning up the kitchen, over and over again. And I never use the dishwasher in this place, dishwashers seem like a big waste of time and water to me.  |
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Post by Admin on Sept 14, 2023 1:41:30 GMT
I spend so much of my time just cleaning up where I stay.
All I really need is a studio apartment now, that way less space to clean up.
It's so quiet where I stay now, I dread moving, not sure if I'll ever find this type of quietness again ever, and that so scares me.
Peace, peacefulness while home, is heaven, but if live around loud neighbors, that's hell.
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Post by Admin on Oct 25, 2023 19:51:15 GMT
I spend the bulk of my time and energy, when at home, simply cleaning up after self  I spend the bulk of my time, when at home, just cleaning up after myself...I waste, or spend a lot of time and energy doing that, like a dog chasing their own tail. I guess the only solution to that is to not make a mess to begin with, in that simply clean up/put things away immediately; as in cloths, and or doing the dishes right after a meal. Easier said than done, cause how many of us, when get home from work, just toss clothing wherever? Or after a meal, just pile dishes in sink? Or just scatter stuff, when looking for something? If I didn't spend so much time and energy cleaning up behind self, I can only wonder how many collective years, yes years, I've lost to always cleaning up behind self.
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Post by Admin on Aug 1, 2024 17:03:23 GMT
Cleaning over the age of 50 I've been in an emotional energetic lull over the last few days, so I decided to clean and straighten up the place, thinking it would help boost my mood...so far it hasn't worked, I still feel emotionally flat and unmotivated and almost hopeless that anything will work out. Not even coffee is helping...hmm. I did drink on Friday night, or maybe it was Saturday, no Sunday, I did drink on Sunday, or maybe it was Monday, I don't know, I forget...either way, I had about 7 cans of beer, on Monday, and I don't think that could be the cause of my emotional lull, it has to be something else effecting my mood or a bunch of little stuff, maybe future worry about my finances, and living situation. I don't know, in the past I'd just drink right now and so it wouldn't matter, but now that moving away from drinking I'm forced to deal with my moods and all their complexities. ------------------------ The future is ugly, if not prepared for it, and even when you think you're prepared for it, it can still be ugly. So what now? Well, rents due today...just great, and so is my storage fee, just great. Everything is always grabbing at your resources... I haven't worked in months, and loving it, but I know this honeymoon will end soon, come crashing down, in, in a violent way. Changes will have to be made...but at my age, do I really want change anymore? Well, when poor, your options are limited, that's just how it is...when poor, you really haven't a say in much. Either you gotta go back and work some mindless manual job, or live homeless or live in some ran down community, which can be worse than being homeless at times. I don't know.
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