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Post by Admin on Feb 15, 2022 18:50:53 GMT
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Post by Admin on Feb 15, 2022 18:53:46 GMT
Yep, today's Tuesday, and I haven't been out of this place since Saturday night.
When I'm home I'm just not eager to go out anywhere cause when on the job all I do is drive and travel, so when home I like to stay home.
But I'm running short on a few things, so to the store I go.
To traffic lights I go, stupid drivers I go.
Why can't more people just sit still, why is society always on the run? I mean what's the end result of everyone scurrying around all the time?
And for me, getting dressed and ready to go out is like a whole production.
face, hair, clothing, it's just a hassle.
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Post by Admin on Mar 1, 2022 18:47:45 GMT
Yep, it's Tuesday again.
This video here 'The Cage Show', explains the whole Putin against the world dynamic in less than 10 minutes.
The world needs to back off of Russia a bit before the man cracks, and the rest of us have to pay a price for it.
Not even sure what the threat was?
I mean so what, Putin wanted to rule over Ukraine, so what, It's not like he was going to cut off all their water and commerce.
The people still could have lived, and worked quietly to win over the hearts of the puppet regime through romance, and other social media ways.
Life would not have changed all that much for them, but now it sure has, now the whole world has changed.
Sometimes I wish the west would just stay out of other nations business.
Just look at Hong Kong now, all those riots and fighting for what, in the end China still got what it wanted.
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Post by Admin on Mar 15, 2022 21:03:43 GMT
Ahh, another Tuesday has arrived.
It's raining out, test drove a Dodge Challenger, can't afford but test drove it anyways.
Not as impressed as I thought I'd be, it felt a bit sluggish and heavy, but the exterior was cool looking.
And I guess that's all most buy sports cars for, is the exterior, at least when my age...for the 'Hey, they're still cool', effect.
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Post by Admin on Apr 12, 2022 13:47:03 GMT
I think I just talked self out of getting a new car again.
I think for me to get a new car would almost be evil.
Why do I put it like that?
I think me getting a new car is evil, cause I can't afford it, I want it, but can't afford it.
Also, I think servitude is evil, and having car payments for years is a form of servitude.
And I know this, yet I keep flirting with the idea of getting a new car, and keep calling the dealer saying one day I want it, then the next day changing my mind.
I feel foolish.
But I also only feel like, or act upon, getting a new car when have a few drinks in me, that's when I 'act', as in call the dealer.
But when sober, I don't 'act', I want but don't act.
Yesterday had a few drinks in me, so I acted out, but today I'm sober and so logic has kicked in again.
How long can I keep playing this game with myself?
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Post by Admin on Apr 19, 2022 20:52:04 GMT
I really got burned out yesterday on just playing phone tag.
Phone tag can really exhaust you, as in being put on hold, just trying to deal with entities, corporations, custimor service, it just takes up a gob of time, and no one seems to have the right ultimate answer.
I just got burned out on it all yesterday and the burnout spilled into today.
Last week I think I was on the verge of getting a new car, this week I'm just a old chump again.
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Post by Admin on Apr 27, 2022 4:00:31 GMT
I did OK today, I got a new pick up truck, well a new used pickup truck.
Not bad.
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Post by Admin on May 17, 2022 18:28:10 GMT
It's Tuesday  Finally got my ISBN number, now I can go forward with this publishing experience. Hopefully will have better success with this new publisher.
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Post by Admin on May 31, 2022 20:32:25 GMT
Dull Tuesday  A very dull Tuesday for me, very dull. Have to work tomorrow, which makes the day, evening, seem even more dull. Will go to store, one more time, get a few items, than come back for the last time before work tomorrow. I'm not very enthused right now, no personal victories as of late. Getting that used p/u truck was the last personal victory I've experienced. Pain in arm shoulder area, came back, so time at work has pretty much been all misery, and so started drinking again, for now, to just deal with it all. Cooking some hamburger meat and two small lamb chops. I don't think being a veggie is good for me anymore, I think the body really does need 'fat', and other stuff only found in meat, to build and repair self correctly...that's just my hunch. When I cook, and then eat ground hamburger meat, it tastes really good now, as if body is craving it. I'll cook it and it'll last a few days or a week as I'll use it to mix in with other food. Anyways, need to get up now and go 'out there' one more time before I'm owned for the next 3 days at my job, I prefer the weeks where I get 4 days off in a row, that extra day off just helps me to cope, to recover, and to find emotional balance within self. And I could never go back to only having 2 days off in a row, can't even imagine that, unless I had job I really loved and worked around cool people where you could flirt and all.
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Post by Admin on Jun 21, 2022 22:36:19 GMT
Tuesday it is  Tuesday it is, which is like my Sunday, cause have to work tomorrow. And from 1-10, this last off day round, I give it a 5, just wasn't that pleasant for me, was battling loneliness the whole time, and lonliness is the window to all sorts of unsavory stuff. Most people just don't know what it's like to truly be lonely and socially isolated for no good reason at all, but rather maybe do to complex reasons. I absolutely hate where I'm at, I hate the mindset of the people here, in this community, and I hate the fact that I can't just up and move, to stressful and to expensive and where would I go? I'm not the young adventurous type I use to be. No matter where i go I will need a job and what job will allow me to only work 3 days a week while recieving a full time income? And what's the point of moving if going from one apartment complex to another? If I move, it needs to feel like a life change, I'd need land and all, but can't finance it do to credit. F credit, dam If I'm going to go backwards, and be broke paying of debt that's not even collectable anymore, just in hopes my credit score goes up. I need my cash reserve, is why was able to buy a second vehicle for cash. I'd only go back and pay off stupid uncollectable debt if could do so without it hurting me. I don't feel sorry for debt collectors or the greedy Wallstreet rich as hell types the collect for...not now not ever, slush fund moe foes'.. I have one life, and they've all lived lavishly, they don't need to die and go to heaven cause many already live like they're in heaven. Anyways, no need to write a book in this one post. Precious hours left before have to go to bed, and or to drunk to think straight.
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Post by Admin on Jun 28, 2022 17:12:53 GMT
Tuesday it is  It's Tuesday, wow and woh. here we go. I don't think everyone is worth dying for, as in going to war. I see plenty of people, in the course of the day, who aren't worth dying for any more or less than mine. I think, know, patriotic people tend to come from very strong communities and close knit families. I don't have a close knit family, and the community in which I exist, well, I feel no fondness towards them any more or less than they do towards me. The community you exist in plays big on how you see the nation abroad. Anyways, it's Tuesday...more thoughts and comments to follow.
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Post by Admin on Aug 2, 2022 16:27:54 GMT
I literally need to get my butt up out of here and go shopping, there's like nothing in the fridge.
I've just been so obscessed with this pre-recorded radio show I've been working on lately that I've neglected all other tasks.
I should just shop from home, but last time the service didn't accept the pay pal method, I don't know, I could use the exercise, but shopping is so drab to me now, even the short drive up there to the store is drab.
But I gotta do something.
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Post by Admin on Oct 11, 2022 14:49:31 GMT
It's Tuesday.
I've been laying around in bed all day, in and out of sleep, can't seem to get my engine going today.
But it felt like a healthy long extended light sleep.
I have to work tomorrow so I need to utilize the time today....and I have a show to finish up, but my mind is blank.
I need to fire up the cyclinders and start getting some stuff done today.
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Post by Admin on Oct 12, 2022 0:01:42 GMT
Yep, still a crappy day for me, my mood hasn't gotten any better, but I think it's more of a 'bio' linked type of mood, not a mental one, but a bio one, as in the after effects of drinking.
I told self was going to stop, but Monday or Sunday afternoon I caved.
Loneliness takes me there every time.
But I over came it before, will again.
Tea, the natural stuff I get, helps, helps with the mood and all.
Think I'll go prepare some right now.
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2023 16:15:10 GMT
Yep, it's Tuesday and I'm off today, thank goodness.
I need to close up some lose ends today...will I have the energy or enthusiasm to do so?
Maybe some coffee will help.
I'm dressed though, that's always a big first step, getting dressed and grooming.
I'm an older male with lots of hair still, and so grooming for me takes longer than some guy who's just bald and doesn't care about their looks.
To me, the whole bald look only looks good if or when young and fit, if you're not fit, older and bald, it just makes you look sickly.
It also depends upon your skin tone.
Darker skinned people look better being bald, as darker skin tends to age better.
Anyways, I'm dressed, so now time to go do something important, but it's noon here, so wonder if they're even in the leasing office right now.
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