The good male dilemma

When younger, had I slept around like most guys and didn't respect women

When younger, had I slept around like most guys and didn't respect women I'd probably have or life would be like this....

1. I'd have a large family by now, and muffins who loved me, regardless of whom their Mother was, or the type of man I was decades ago.


Now that older, I see it's all the scummy men, the men who were scummy, when younger, are the ones with large families now, multiple lovers, girlfriends and wives, current and or former.

These men, who slept around when younger, now that older, are never lonely, always have someone, some old Lady friend, ex wife, muffins, grown muffins, family, this that, who want to be around them.

Me, on the other hand, when younger, tried living the life of a choir boy, and now that older my life is hollow.

I'm home now and alone.
It's Saturday night, millions of people around nation out and about, movies, parties, concerts, having 'sex', and doing whatever, yet I sit here home alone, and still someone in my physical prime...why?

All cause when younger had that 'good male Delima' about me.
Would go to church, nothing, nada, all the women at church were always older and married, or way to young for me.
And those my age, were snobs, and not interested, always wanted some 'Jesus man from college or a University.

Church gals, my peers, sure, would pray with you, for you, have bible study, but when it came to more, they always held their nose up to us common guys.

Looking back, church, the whole thing, really let me down and has left me with a very empty life.

Bottom line, as far as I'm concerned, I missed out on my chance, my time, to live, and enjoy love, romance and sex, why?
Do to religion, which I near hate now.