Film school chronicles

One of the reasons why I signed up for, enrolled, and paid for this film academy is to 'save my life'.
In that I need discipline again in my life, accountability, and school tends to do that to you, where you have schedules, appointments, assignments, and where others are holding you accountable.
That's when you begin to learn a lot about yourself beyond just words and boasting.

Like I was about to have a few beers, after getting back from working out in the park, but then admissions person called, and new we have a zoom meeting in a few hours, so now, I can't drink, won't drink, do to that meeting, but only cause it's a zoom, where they can see you.
But that's what I mean, and you string enough moments like that together and soon booze, alcohol, becomes a after thought.

And I'm doing this to re-establish relationship with others, something I haven't had in years

Another good thing about school (regardless of your age) is it keeps you engaged with others.
In school, you're around others, and thus form, create, new relationships that usually last a lifetime.

I've been cut off from others for years, and the types of jobs I work (blue collar stuff, driving, ect) you just don't form those deep bonding relationships as you do in school or college.

Relationships are life.

I don't know how to feel right now, cause today I did something so out of the range of my normal activity, was around very high brass important people, cops, bugle guy, bag pipes guy, I'm just overwhelmed right now a bit.
And two and a half months ago I was getting off of a lousy shift of driving a semi-truck...things have changed drastically since then.

Well, I'm still here, not sure why.
That aside, next week I'll be going to Pittsburg, PA, to pick up a vehicle for a film maker, than I'll be driving it back, around 900 miles.
And I'll film some of the trip, which they told me they may use in a future documentary...wow.

Life is odd, and so am I.
I can't make sense of any of it anymore, for sure.
I'm just here, I guess.

I should be studying right now, but I sure don't feel like it. It's late, a drank a few beers earlier, ahh, my mind not in the mood to study...rather I'm in late night creative mode.

OK, here's the deal...

I just signed up for adobe creative cloud for like 1 full year, at around $239.00.
The school I attend, if you want to call it that...I mean it's pretty much a self paced, self taught course, unless you get a really good hands on mentor who likes you.

That aside, they dropped the payment into my account, but actually, I'm sure they just took it out of my initial tuition cost...so as usual it's me who really paying for it...and it should just be apart of tuition anyways.

1. I've never ever used adobe, any of their stuff, I just always found it way to complex, especially when there were so many easier to use spin off alternatives, over the years.



I mean like this piece here, I've been creating art for over a decade just using my own skill set and getting creative with different tools.
So do really need adobe?

Probably yes, for one main reason, and that is if I do get into film stuff or photo stuff, adobe, and a few other such professional editing software, well, they're the standard that people even in Hollywood use...and so if I can't even use adobe, it just drops my value all that much more to people.

Oh, I'll figure it out, and when I do I'll be great at it, but there will be a big learning curb at first.

I really want to be a screenplay writer though, that's what I'm best at doing, is writing...I mean where do you think all the material comes from on this blog forum?

Not AI, this blog form was created years and years before AI was born.
It's all original content....all of it....and one day maybe I'll open this blog forum up to more powerful people...but not now.

Anyways, yes, getting adobe was a big deal to me, a bit overwhelmed, not to mention just received a DSLR Canon camera I just ordered and paid over a gran for...and a gimbel I've still got to charge up and figure out, not to mention lesson plans, script and more...my brain is really having to work now and is why I can no longer afford to drink.

Drinking will kill all of it, I cannot drink, and still have the mental energy and enthusiasm to do what I have to do over the next few months.
If I can just not drink, at all anymore, at least while in this course, than I should do and be fine...but you never know, cause regardless of my own actions we all know life can just be brutally cruel at times.
Anyways, I'm wasting time and writing energy here, so let me move on.

Also, I downloaded the adobe on a different PC, one that's clean..no files, no personal stuff, nothing, nada, unlike the one I'm typing with now.