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Post by Admin on Aug 16, 2023 12:48:52 GMT
It's Wednesday  Well, it's time to get dressed, groom, then up and out for a bit while it's still somewhat cool out. When younger, years ago, morning times used to feel so special to me, until I like moved to the ghetto area. In ghetto areas, where ghetto people live, no matter what time of day it is you see the same human filth and trash walking the streets. The same burned out facial expressions, the same litter and trash on the ground and streets. The day I move away from the ghetto area and ghetto people is the day I get my life back.That being said, I still need to get up and out for a bit.
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Post by Admin on Aug 23, 2023 12:30:10 GMT
It's Wednesday, and I've got nothing on the plate today, other than to reset and relax the mind.
It's the last of my 4 days off, and Monday job called to see if I could come into work, and of course I said no.
As if, when off, all I or we do is sit around, with no life of our own, waiting on standby to jump back into work, screw that.
When I'm off, I'm living my life, for the better or worse, but either way I'm living my life.
I might be at the zoo, or in the park, or shopping, or drinking, or partying, or boating, or at a museum, whatever...do you think I'm going to stop all of that just to come back into a job I hate?
Just to still be poor?
If a job can't pay me a minimum of 1000 dollars to come in on a off day, than it's not worth it to me.
Being a labor slave is just not appealing to me anymore at my age.
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Post by Admin on Aug 30, 2023 17:55:24 GMT
It's Wednesday  It's Wednesday. Not having the best time of it today, not at all. My mind, my own habits, are what are my issues right now. And it's Hurricane day, forget the name of it, Idalia? I have to work tomorrow, and pretty much wasted the previous 3 1/2 days. I did a few things on the 'to do list', and I already feel dispirited, and so will lay back while watching another episode of the Twilight Zone.
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Post by Admin on Sept 14, 2023 1:39:12 GMT
So hard for me to get pepped up during the work week, when I know I have to go to bed soon and do it all again tomorrow, work that is.
And my job just sucks all the life out of me, I absolutely hate it, but I do like the schedule, but like most hourly paying jobs, the pay is not keeping up with inflation or rent increases.
I could go stay at a house I inherited, but I don't like that place, I mean who wants to stay in a place where your deceased relative used to live, I just don't want the memories and all.
If I did, I'd have to gut the place, but it's the only place where I could still live rent free.
Thinking about my future just stresses me out now, so I try not to think about it, but time is catching me for sure.
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Post by Admin on Oct 5, 2023 0:46:39 GMT
Today really beat me up I'm not a suicidal type, but I tell you what, when I woke up this morning, if I had passed away, I wasn't troubled by that idea. You just get tired sometimes, especially when alone.
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Post by Admin on Nov 1, 2023 23:39:39 GMT
Yes, I know Halloween is over  Ahh, about to go prepare some lunch for tomorrow, which is basically fruit slices. When at home, and eat home cooked stuff, health always so good, even if I drink, health is just good, but seems the minute I go out into the world, as in my job, and buy deli stuff, or anything not prepared by me, than that's when I start getting the sniffles, or ect. Nothing beats home cooked meals, lunches; but that being said, it's easy to get lured into the flavor of chips, sweets, fried deli, ect. Anyways, I need a hug right now, cause the next 11 days will be, well, just challenging, first work then travel...lord have mercy.
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Post by Admin on Nov 15, 2023 21:05:04 GMT
It's Wednesday, I'm here, what else can I say...  I'm here, haven't worked in a while, took a trip out west, now I'm back and, well...I'm here. Ugg. Is life ever going to get better?
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Post by Admin on Nov 23, 2023 3:06:34 GMT
I've been treating myself bad lately, that needs to stop I've been treating myself bad lately, and that needs to stop. I mean like mentally, putting myself down, my lack of success in this world, my lack of social status, lack of friends, lack of family, lack of money, lack of everything that pretty much makes you a happy thriving person, yet I'm still here, and still try to remain positive, for whatever reason or reasons. And when you put yourself down, it makes you want to drink more, as if torturing self, slowly destroying self. I just need to refocus on something, or things, that bring me joy (been saying that for years) Either way, I don't like abusing myself, I mean I don't abuse others, or animals, so why should I abuse myself, even if unhappy with self.
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Post by Admin on Nov 23, 2023 3:07:07 GMT
Today feels so much more like Friday to me.
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Post by Admin on Jan 24, 2024 13:03:49 GMT
It's Wednesday, so what.It's Wednesday, and well, not sure how to feel about my life right now, or whatever future I have left down here on earth. Actually, once you get away from earth, not sure if there's such a thing as up or down in space. Anyways, the days here, and I'm sure I'll waste it away like I've done the previous 4 days. But when trying to save money, sitting still helps you to do that. I've drank beer every day...beer will be my downfall, but only love and purpose can cure you of such vices. Anyways, will get started on meaningless 'to do list', just to keep myself from staring at the walls and spacing out. News - Trump one the GOP nomination, but that's no surprise. I don't like the mans personality when he's campaigning, but his policies, once he's in office, I don't mind so much. Other news - Nothing that effects me...
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Post by Admin on Jan 24, 2024 21:13:27 GMT
Cool fun song!
Help elevate the common class...I mean if visit this site than engage in the videos, 'follow' ect.
Don't just be someone who consumes the content without helping others to succeed, thanks.
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Post by Admin on Apr 4, 2024 0:55:54 GMT
It's Wednesday  It's Wednesday, been slushing around all day, haven't gotten nothing at all done. I'm not working now, so it really doesn't matter. But odd, how when so used to working, so conditioned to life evolving around bills, your pay check, rent, ect, that when finally get ahead a bit, it's hard to relax, cause you still feel like you have deadlines to meet. It's a hard feeling to shake, to not feel guilty about just laying around....always the feeling of impending doom. That's just how we've all been conditioned.Anyways, time to get up, move about, and create a 'to do list'...and of course rent must be paid in less than 3 hours or I'll get a late fee of 100 bucks....money or no money, I haven't 100 bucks to give away for free.
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2024 14:42:53 GMT
I think it's Wednesday
Things are changing quick.
I'm about to go from the world of obscure online writing, to the world of real life production projects on real sets, and working with a real life industry pro/veteran.
I'm paying for it though (stupid me).
As such, I have to change a lot of my mental habits, as well as physical ones.
For one, no more drinking.
Drinking, at least for me, totally hampers my enthusiasm for anything, and totally messes up my moods, especially the morning after you drink, and during the whole day sometimes.
And I'll start having to utilize my time way way way better, no more vain 'to do lists', that have me doing things that don't matter for squat.
And I'm going to start getting back into near athlete shape, for my own sake, cause I'm going to need all the energy I can get, to get through this phase of my life.
I'm like doing a total life change, and not sure how to feel about it right now.
It's one thing to wish for things, and change, when you're drunk, its another thing to actually execute those changes when given the chance, and then you have other evaluating you as well = pressure = accountability.
Anyways, time to get started on stuff, no more ducking away from unpleasant tasks.
Time will tell if I'm up for the task or if I'm just a big bluffer to myself and or others.
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Post by Admin on May 8, 2024 16:25:26 GMT
Wednesday is here, but I don't think I'm here just quiet yet, or if I'll ever by here today.
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Post by Admin on May 8, 2024 16:27:16 GMT
I make no sense to myself anymore.
I feel, at times, that my whole life, my whole existence, has been a bad mistake. (My current post drinking mood speaking)
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